Where have I been?

Well its pretty simple really, everywhere and nowhere.  I’ve gotten stuck in a crappy rut, and so far there seems no end in sight.

It’s been a struggle to write.  It’s been a struggle to do anything but sitting at my laptop goofing off on games.  It’s the only thing lately that has really helped keep the ugliness in my head to a bare minimum.  Reading only works for a short while.  Sad huh.

I’m hoping that its just my hormones trying to return to normal since I’m no longer nursing.  If its not that….we’re screwed people.  W.E.  A.R.E. S.C.R.E.W.E.D.

I’ve made a ton of vlogs, haven’t posted them because I hate them.  The only room I can safely shoot is in our office, and it has horrible lighting.  Cindy Crawford would look like Medusa in there.  I have to play around in other rooms and to hell if Bo sees or hears me.  Because I can’t stand the sight of myself in these things.

So…yeah that is what is happening with my crappy posts, and not posting much.  I’m not happy about it, but for now I’m stuck on what to do to get this to go away.