Thursday, December 09, 2010
Baby step...and maybe a leap
I crashed on the couch all day barely doing anything else. I felt terrible, not just the bullshit in my head but my whole body ached and I was so damn exhausted it was a struggle to stay awake. I forget how my mood does that sometimes. How the lower I get the worse my entire body feels until all I want to do is cry and hide away from it all. Then however long it takes me to come out of the fog, I'm like holy crap did I feel terrible. It's crazy how your mind and mood can affect your whole body.
I'm glad I woke up today feeling better all the way around....even though I barely slept because of how I was feeling.
So anyway, while I was poor meing on the couch all day, I did something actually good for myself. I know what the fuck right? Well I entered a short story, The Stranger on two different websites. Woohoo! One is Good Reads and another I'll share once it's posted. I have others that I've written lately but this one was my first real go at it and well I kinda like it the most because of that. It's kind of my baby. The first real story I have ever written and finished...well as much as you can in a short story anyway. I know this doesn't really get me closer to publishing, but it gets my stuff out there more so I can get more comfy with people reading my work. I still get uncomfortable knowing that short story is here where you guys can read it. I avoid it at all costs otherwise I'll delete it. I have to get over that so what better way to do that than post it (and eventually others) in as many places as I can.
Oh and for some reason it comes out all funky on Good Reads and I don't know why. I've deleted it and reposted it twice, changed the indention's and layout both times and it still comes out looking terrible. I don't know what I'm doing wrong...any tips?
That leap...well I won't give details because I don't want to jinx it but there's a good chance we could get EXCELLENT news today....like awesome news....like holy shitballs kinda news. And if it's not today, it'll definitely be within the next few days. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE