until I decide whether or not to try more meds. The worst part about it is I am my warden and I'm not good at that job.
It's easy to let myself get away with doing what I want. I'm a sucker when it comes to me.
So starting today, once I finish chatting with my Mama on Facebook and finish this here post, I am not allowed to touch my writing, my books or my laptop until all of my chores are done. I can stop to play with Joss, or take a break or whatever but I am not allowed to touch any of those things until I've crossed the last task off. Even if I drag my feet and it takes me hours to get through my list...gasp.
I know this won't fix me, but it's a start to get myself from using these things as a crutch to get through my day. Seriously, I'm doing one of those three things from the time I wake up to the time I go to bed, that's a big problem. I sit my timer to stop and do something else but I just keep resetting it.
I'm dreading this, I'm hating it but I know that it has to be done. I wouldn't let my kids or Bo get away with goofing off and not doing their chores, so why am I allowed to?