Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Testing something

If I get a little quiet there's a reason.

And it's not because I've ran out of things to blog about, it's the exact opposite.  This blog is my therapy so to speak.  It's where I come to bitch, or have break downs cause of the OCD/depression/anxiety.  No matter how hard I try to write about other things, it never feels right.  It's like if this were a book blog and I suddenly started posting things on brain surgery.  It doesn't feel right.  I'm seeing hardly any traffic lately and the comments are about dried up (not that I blog for either).  I know why.  I see why.  My posts are sucking majorly, because although I try to write about something else, I just can't do it any justice...not here anyway.

So I created something new.  Something that doesn't make me feel all down and blue whenever I log into it.  I don't feel the need to talk about OCD or depression only.  I don't feel like I'm cheating somehow by wanting to write a post about couponing or cooking or trying to get myself organized.  I don't feel like I've already failed before I even start writing, like I do here.

That doesn't mean this blog is being shut down, cause it's not.  I still need it.  I'll still post.  I just don't want to hate blogging....and I have for a while now.  I hate that I don't feel like I can write about something I want to write about on my own blog.  I don't know why that is, but it is and I've fought it long and hard, but it hasn't changed anything.  I want to come here for the times I need it, I want to share tips and articles and even books about my issues, but I find it hard to do that when I have all these other things I'd like to blog about too.

Anyway, this is just a test.  This new blog may not last long.  But I wanted to give it a try anyway and see where it lead me.

If your curious it's here...figured I might as well use it since we created it for the website that is still sitting there collecting dust...maybe this will be what I do with it...who knows.


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